Spring Update: Growing Pains
It should be no surprise that the only time I get to write these days is whenever I am not already writing a report or working on some other assignment for class. I am not sure what possessed me to think that going for another Masters degree would be a good idea but yet here we are, mere months from graduating, again. Maybe I’ll extend it a bit, who knows…
These past few months have been filled with reflection and grieving—and yes, stress, but that's a given with everything on my plate. On the reflection side, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about why I am on the path that I am on. What is important to me and where do I want to be at this stage in my life. I suppose that by reflecting inward I have also been looking forward to what is next. Something that I very much look forward to is working on this blog and all the work that it entails. The photography, the food/cooking, the story telling, I realize there’s still so much more that I can do with this platform, and I am excited to jump back in it. In a way, it’s the therapy that I need to center myself once again post-MBA.
On the grieving side, it hasn’t been in the traditional sense of the word. Actually, it's been about grieving the loss of my former self. Everyone talks about how 30+ is so much different than your 20s. Sure there have been some physical changes that I have mentioned before in my Better Than I Ever Was post. But there have also been other changes that I never expected. Sometimes, I grieve for my former sense of excitement for what was to come in life. The feeling that the world was my oyster, and I am just one turn away from reaching all of my goals. I grieve over the loss of youth and time passing. There are moments when I think about my parents and other loved ones, realizing that people will continue to age despite me not being there with them. It's almost like when an adult used to tell you as a kid to stop growing up. Except now I wish I could say that to everyone I care for.
Over the next few weeks I hope to dive deeper into both of these topics as I realize that it is a common feeling a lot of people feel but fear to talk about. These are topics that I struggled a lot with, and still do. However, I am much more comfortable now in speaking about them than ever before and I can’t wait to share my stories with you all.